Ali, you have loved Greg and his Mama super-abundantly, just like Jesus. You chose to pour out, rather than work with a 'professional detachment'. You have touched a child, a mother, an extended family, and a whole community with the love of Jesus by your sacrificial living. Sometimes love, real love, the love you shared, just really, really hurts.
"Why are we left here with hearts poured out like water on the world?"
Because, my dear, you couldn't be there to help carry the cross, or give Him a drink or heal His wounds. So I believe that some little ones are born to suffer and even die so that we can truly be God's eyes, ears and hands.
I'm so sorry for your grief, Ali. But I truly believe that caring for the dying is the most blessed act you can do in this life and doing it with grace, compassion and love, as you do, is a gift. If you have the courage to accept that gift it will give back blessings tenfold. Keep pouring your heart out and it will never be empty.
Hi Ali,
My name is Brittany and you have no idea who I am and I have no idea of who you are except that you have a beautiful heart full of love for God's precious children. As I sit here on my bed reading your blog...tears have multiple times fallen down my face. My heart so yearns to serve the people of Africa. I have been praying about joining along with everyone on Mercy Ships as a nurse and am waiting for God's guidance. Thank you for encouraging me through sharing your heart and thoughts.
Blessings to you!
Brittany
brittany.gomes@gmail.com
p.s. I sort of feel like a creepy stalker...but am not I promise!! somehow found your website originally via facebook!
Your spirit, your heart, your capacity to love -- it's beautiful. Your willingness to be the tangible love of God shames me and emboldens me at the same time.
Thank you for the wake up call. After reading your words, I feel as if a tiny part of my own spirit has been resurrected -- and I don't intend to squander that.
