15 hours until you can share the weight on your shoulders - Phil can hold you and weep with you as only a loving HOJ can - let him be your strength for a while. I know a little something of that separation and awkward homecomings - Phil has pulled you through before and will do it again for Ethan and Zoe and You. We'll pray him across the Atlantic with you and wait for every blog and join with you - our Sunday School class is particularly praying for God to continue knitting Ethan together these last 50 days. HUGS!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh sweetie. I wish you could have heard that horn too.
What i learned from my brain tumor? I am strong enough. What i have learned from four years of post brain tumor physical disability? I'm strong enough. What I learned from my 12yo son's (recent and ongoing) lengthy trek through one specialist after another in search of a reason behind him being failure to thrive? I'm strong enough.
And when i'm not? When i just can't take one more breath, read one more test result, lift my leg and take one more step? God is strong enough for me.
And that right there is the most important thing, no? God is strong enough. And He is carrying us every single step of the way.
Over 19 years ago (while with Mercy Ships) we were going through similar emotions with our son David! He was born, while we were at the International Office, 15 weeks premature! My heart aches with yours! its easy for us to say hold onto God because sometimes you feel you don't have the strength but know he has you all in his everlasting arms and he is not letting go! We stand in the gap For you in prayer. Isaiah 55 was one of the fantastic scriptures we focused on! When you feel you cannot move because of the enormity of your situation know we lift you up in prayer and you just need to breath in and out! Blessings and love from the McCubbin
Every time I read one of your blog posts, I cry--and I am reminded to pray for you and your family. Today is no exception. Praying for the joyfullest of reunions!
I have enjoyed catching up. Not a very active Facebook person so I had not read your blog before today. Wow! Your attitude about God not giving us what we hope for is really spot-on. I used to think that I was blessed (materially,physically, etc) because I trusted God. So what happens to one's faith when those blessings falter? Is God still a God of love when things don't go the way we choose/hope? It's such a hard lesson but such a tester of our faith. Your faith is being tested and you are shining for Jesus Ali! One more thing to share is that I have a friend who had a baby in December. They found out at 21 weeks that his skull did not close and that his brain was protruding. They advised abortion very strongly. My friend refused. Each ultrasound confirmed that he had a hole in his head... but she gave birth to a perfectly normal baby boy. God worked a miracle. Sometimes He works these miracles and sometimes He works through the pain, but don't give up praying for a miracle. I'll email you her letter if you'd like it. Thanks for sharing your story. I will be praying.